Seppukrow

I have come to leave a message to the millions and billions of people who are reading this.

First, I would like to apologize to my father and my entire family, which is why I was arrested away from our house.

I'm not innocent as I have seemed. I've done some very naughty things behind your backs the entire time. But I'm tired of this whole purity game. I'd rather be a criminal than live a stupid boring normal life.

But don't worry! Everyone will be treating me very well in jail.

And I will become famous. Oh-so famous! So famous I will probably become the most famous person in the world. It can't be helped. I'm just too weird, funny, crazy, embarrassing, and fascinating to not to be #1 in the entire universe.

This is all part of a wonderful and brilliant plan I've improvised today. The best part is that I get to win everything I want while playing with all my cards face up.

I was known as the nicest guy ever, which is what will make my plan work out. I will become known as crazy; so crazy that it will give genuinely nice people a bad name! And because I will be so world-famous it will have a very world-wide effect, fucking up a lot of things!

Doesn't help that nice people have it bad already. "Beware of the nice ones!" they say. They'll be treated as crazy in turn of me looking so absolutely fucking nuts. And that effect will tear society apart. Gotta leave it to the dumb and unintelligent to break shit up!

And people will be endlessly fascinated with me. Oh yes, absolutely. Their interpretations of my character will be so ridiculously inconsistent because the public is unable to comprehend me. And plus there will always be interesting information and rumors about me abound! It'll make people who have associated with me in the past in some sort of way reach ridiculous levels of fame they have never reached before! And they'll probably be incredibly overwhelmed and embarrassed by it! Ouch! Also some people will wonder why the hell I'm so much like Princess Luna; but why is that!?!?!?

And I'll plead guilty to everything I've done.

Some word of advice to my serious admirers. Don't argue with your enemies. Cut them off and ignore them. Doing that will hurt their psychology with great magnitude and it will make them feel like they're not doing something right.

And I don't just believe in God, I know.

I will take the greatest fall, and in turn I will perform the greatest rise in existence. A fitting path of detachment for me, hm?

I will be waiting for the end of the universe to happen very soon. Enjoy your stupid arguments and fights in the meantime! I will be enjoying this whole ride.

I am Solias Maitreya, and I don't live a life with regrets.

I am Destiny.

If you happen to be reading this... Why I have a fortune for you! Good things are guaranteed to come soon for you! Enjoy the show that will be coming up soon!

► Name ➔ Just call me Seppu.
► Are you single ➔ Yep
► Are you happy ➔  Feeling okay.
► Are you bored ➔ No sir.
► Are you Italian ➔ No.
► Are you German ➔ Part.
► Are you Asian ➔ No.
► Are you Irish ➔ No.
► Are your parents still married ➔ Nope.

TEN FACTS
► Birth Place ➔ Illinois
► Hair Color ➔ Brownish
► Eye color ➔ Browny
► Birthday ➔ August 28th
► Mood ➔ Um, tired?
► Gender ➔ Male.
► Lefty or Righty ➔ Rightish.
► Summer or winter ➔ I don't really care honestly. When I think about Winter being too cold I'm also reminded how Summer can be too hot.
► Morning or afternoon ➔ Afternoon. I prefer sleeping in in the morning.

TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE
► Are you in love ➔ Yes.
► Do you believe in love at first sight ➔ Not sure.
► Who ended your last relationship ➔ I did.
► Have you ever been hurt ➔ Kind of hard to describe. I'd have to say yes in a way.
► Have you ever broken someone's heart ➔ If you mean intentionally I would never. I know I've made a lot of people instantly hate me with extreme passion though.
► Are you friends with your ex ➔ No.
► Are you afraid of commitment ➔ No.
► Have you hugged someone within the last week? ➔ No.
► Have you ever had a secret admirer ➔ Yes.
► Have you ever broken your own heart? ➔ No.

TEN CHOICES
► Love or lust ➔ Both.
► Lemonade or iced tea ➔ Lemonade.
► Cats or Dogs ➔ Cats are fluffy. I like dogs if they're nice and playful.
► A few best friends or many regular friends ➔ Maybe a few best friends. If by regular friend just someone who pretends to be nice or whatever then what's the point?
► Television or internet ➔ Internet.
► Pepsi or Coke ➔ Don't care.
► Wild night out or romantic night in ➔ Both.
► Day or night ➔ Doesn't matter.
► IM or Phone ➔ IM. Actually prefer talking in person than being on the phone.

TEN HAVE YOU EVER
► Been caught sneaking out ➔ Never done it.
► Fallen off the stairs ➔ Fell down an escalator once when I was a toddler. Haha.
► White water rafted ➔ No.
► Finished an entire jawbreaker ➔ I think? Can barely remember having one.
► Prank called a store ➔ No sir.
► Skipped school ➔ I skipped school once entirely. I prefer faking sickness to get out of classes.
► Wanted to disappear ➔ No.

TEN PREFERENCES
► Smile or eyes ➔ Both.
► Light or dark hair ➔ As long as it looks nice I don't care.
► Fat or skinny ➔ Skinny.
► Shorter or Taller ? ➔ Around the same height.
► Intelligence or Attraction ➔ Both.
► Jock or Nerd ➔ I don't care as long as you have a pretty personality.
► Hook-up or Relationship ➔ Relationship.
► Funny and poor OR rich and serious ➔ ...

LAST
► Last Phone Call ➔ Don't remember. I use my phone so rarely I can barely remember my phone number.
► Last phone call you received ➔ Uh.
► Last person you hung out with ➔ Someone from the Internet.
► Last thing you ate ➔ Coffee Cake.
► Last thing you drank ➔ Flavored water.
► Last site you went to ➔ YouTube.
► Last place you were ➔ A pretty little coffee shop to get a drink actually.

RELATIONSHIPS
► Are you in a committed relationship ➔ No.
► When was your last relationship ➔ Around two years ago.
► Have you ever loved a guy/girl more than anything else in the world? ➔ Anything else? That's a bit too much. I'd have to say I've been extremely committed to several though.
► Do you still love them ➔ Be fair to me and I won't cut you off.
► Do you like someone right now ➔ Yep.

FAMILY
► Do you and your family get along  ➔ No. I prefer to avoid them.
► Would you say you have a "messed up life"➔ I'm the opposite of normal.
► Have you ever run away from home ➔ Nah.
► Have you ever gotten kicked out ➔ Don't think so.
► If so, how long ➔ A million years.

FRIENDS
► Do you secretly hate one of your friends ➔ Hell no. If I hate a friend then they're not really my friend.
► Do you consider all of your friends good friends ➔ The few I have left I'd have to say yes.
► Who are/is your best friend(s) ➔ Hmm. So far it's someone who's not on this site.
► Would you die for them ➔ I think they can take care of themselves just well thank you very much.
► Who knows everything about you ➔ Some come close but nobody really so far.

So tired. Yesterday I was lied to but yet I was actually warned in advance in a dream I was going to be lied to. I've entered that phase of life where everything is turned upside down for me. Well hopefully I'll be feeling better today.

I'm the kind of person who will stay alone in the night if it's warm.

But wouldn't that make me want to look for someone? Yes, but it's not so bad not to have one. But I've always wondered if there's a girl out there in the world right for me, and what I would have to do to get one. I'm a very intense person and I think very highly of myself but I was naturally born to be very aggressive when necessary. And that spells bad news for many, and not because I blame myself, but that I blame them for being irrational when they act out of fear.

I once had a friend who was very special to me because she was the one and only friend I had at the time that I felt comfortable of being honest and open with, and that means a lot. She was also the funniest and most reliable friend I had, and that means a lot too. Here is the picture I see in my head. I'm like the Frankenstein that everyone would rather stay away from, and this girl who was reasonably shy of course put her differences aside to befriend this Frankenstein of a guy. But in the end was inevitable failure. Our beliefs conflicted too much, she flat out told me I wasn't a real friend because we were just internet friends, and she disappeared without telling me.

Why did she let me be her friend? Because she didn't really see me as the Frankenstein the rest saw me as? But why does she stand out so much from the others even today? Because she abandoned me? That would make sense in a way. I'm practically infamous for cutting people off.

Still, thinking about her typing this is making me feel lonely. Just regular down in the dumps like wanting to cry after watching a really sad scene. And I have never remembered feeling like this before. So is there a love out there for me that doesn't end with a conflict of beliefs and everything falling apart? Is there a love out for me that doesn't end because of brittle envy? I wouldn't mind being a cranky hermit. But there is that special feeling of filling someone's dead world with life and making that difference spiting all those therapists and all those people who think the modern way of the world is the way to do it. But maybe doing that is just going to make their pendulum end up swinging the other way again.