Alright I'm going to talk about myself. I have two distinct disorders and I will explain them to you.

Dysgraphia


This deficiency is misapprehended as poor fine motor skills, but it's actually how the brain processes them. Basically, Dysgraphia means that my brain has difficulty processing certain motor functions to the point of impairment. Dysgraphia makes me kind of clumsy, and gives me terrible handwriting, but thankfully it hasn't impaired my drawing functions that much! It also gives me various typing quirks, such as misplacing adverbs like "gentle" with "gently", and completely typing the wrong words such as "chance" instead of "choice".

Bipolar Type II


This is the big one. It turns out that I was diagnosed with this for a long time, but nobody made me aware of it at all. This type of disorder isn't stereotypically just mood swings and making you angry and the like, but the best I can make of it is that it's a complicated way of your brain going through extremes.

The good thing is that bipolar makes me hypomanic. What is hypomania? It can be described as the opposite of depression. Hypomania makes you "euphoric"; it makes you energetic, creative, optimistic; feel like everything is going right for you and you can do no wrong.

Sounds like a pretty nice deal, isn't it? It has its downsides. It makes me very impulsive and I get very easily distracted. And there's the extreme version of hypomania: called mania -- which has all the aforementioned aspects, but to an extreme point that you can't control your thoughts and you most likely require hospitalization for it. Sometimes I feel near manic and become too overconfident to the point that my all my restraints are off and it makes me say and do dumb and silly things, but it doesn't make me lose my perception of reality -- so, all I need is just a good metaphorical smack on the head and I'm back to normal.

The only thing I'm afraid of is, is that when I feel near manic I'm not aware that my restraints are off, so at times I decide to reserve myself and choose not to talk -- this is why I'm so quiet at times. When I know I went through a near manic state, I start getting very anxious worrying about what I just did and sometimes I have to withdraw myself.

The biggest other part of my bipolarity, is that at times I enter in a mixed mood state; this is actually not a common occurrence looking in retrospect, but I've been in this state for a while and it's making me neglect a lot of things like tumblr, deviantArt, and goal-oriented high aspirational tasks.

A mixed mood state is difficult for me to describe, but it's a combination of depression and mania (or to a lesser extent just hypomania)

I haven't learned a lot about a mixed state yet, but I've been feeling this for a while so I'll describe what it feels for me:

When I'm in a mixed state I am energetic and positive, but at the same time I have all these negative thoughts. I feel like I am very bothersome and that I everyone could possibly hate me, and so I anticipate terrible things to happen, but when I actually go through something like talking to someone or reading a response (not every time though) I feel very lax about it. Being in a mixed state makes me neglect a lot of things, and I usually procrastinate and fall for pleasures like online gaming. I can also be agitated when in this state (and, even paranoid)

I'm still learning about bipolar disorder, but it could be about extremities -- and, that you either suffer from one extreme or both at the same time like my mixed state is. To me, bipolar is about being all or nothing.

There are different instances of bipolar disorder, some of them grouped into the same diagnostic such as Type II, or others into a different category like Type I. Some typical suffers of bipolar disorder swing from hypomania to depression and back, but others are more dominated by a certain mood -- for instance, hypomania for me.

I think it is very helpful to be diagnosed if you have something, because you'll be supplied with a wealth of information that can help you learn about yourself. It's also great to talk to people who have the same disorder as you do.

I guess that's all I have to say for now.